I had a power talk with my agent yesterday, and she has a few more revisions that she wants me to make before we go back on submission. It's not a problem at all because we brainstormed some pretty awesome ideas and I'm looking forward to seeing how it improves the book. They were epiphany types ideas that make you hit your head with your palm and say "duh! Why didn't we think of this sooner?"
That's not what scares me.
What scares me is all the times that I've finished my edits and think my book is ready.
And then it's not.
I have done a lot of revisions, many of them after others have read my book. Betas, agents I first queried, my agent, even editors, will come back with comments. Usually these comments are kick ass and make my book better.
That's what scares me.
The idea that I keep thinking my book is strong and then realizing that there are ways to make it better. Often ways to make it a lot better.
Because in between these edits, I've put my book out there thinking it's the best that it can be. I've sent it to agents in the beginning and editors after I signed with my agent. I've sent out what I thought was my strongest draft.
And then I realize it's not.
So as I'm making revisions again, I must admit that I'm scared. I will make these revisions with the thought that these are the ones that make my book the best it can be, the strongest draft I can send out there, but in my mind, I'll wonder if it really is.
How do you ever know that your book is ready?
Do you ever know?
Does this ever scare you too?
Also, if you want an honest look at the submission process (one full of the fears and ups and downs), Natalie Whipple wrote a great post here.